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Parasite 🦠



Facebook post: 12-31-2019: updated

Death seems so much easier than the hurt, lies, pain and abuse my egg donor has caused or allowed to be caused... I fight everyday just to breathe!!!!! She has lied to EVERYONE, not just us. No one is exempt in her game. Wait until you hear it all. Not just my reading, but the actual audio, so, if I end up dead like my dad... check my blog! I have it set to automatically post the first of every month with all the facts that not everyone knows, I’ve just been waiting for court to post it all...

Anyway, Since the parasite who birthed me wanted me to kill myself so she could go into 2020 without the fear of her evil & lies being MORE exposed. I’ve literally prayed for God to just take me... either He doesn’t want me or He is really is going to bring me out of this hell..

But, She ALMOST got what she wanted.. for days I’ve been in bed... (thank you all for the messages, calls, txts, visits, I just literally feel beaten down) I came really close to ending my life to be free of the demons; just like my dad at the end before he overdosed to be free of his; When you hear some of the audio you will understand... these last few years I’ve really figured it out.. it’s been crippling.

I do not want to end up in the body bags she let us be threatened with & I live everyday in fear of our lives!!!! She’s a disgusting lying evil snake & shes lied & abused us long enough, I am soooo messed up from the abuse, you have NO idea the amount pain I’ve endured, I’ve covered up and live with daily; even the death of my son and my dad! I am going into tonight.. sick. I feel like her hands are around my throat and hear her telling me to kill myself.. it’s mind numbing.

It’s been hell & I know it’s raw & people are shocked.. TRUST ME... you don’t always know what’s behind the white picket fence.. sometimes it’s really a haunted house!!!!!! It’s not “just going away”, I’ve hid her evil in fear of her threats & not being able to feed my children... I’m not anymore... but it’s still so damaging!!!!! I wish I had a switch to turn it all off & forget it... So for 2020 everyone will have a clear vision of who she really is & her evil friend too; as I figure out how to “dig the chains & knives out of my flesh”. I’m tired of LYING!!!!! I’m sick and freaking tired of it... So just like she told me about hurting my children.... here you go!!!! YOU’RE WELCOME! I fight everyday with demons she’s left me with and she’s allowed more to hurt me!!! She will make me suffer more but honestly I don’t care!! I’m so close to my last breath & I hope all of you tell her “she killed me” when that day comes just like she let her friend tell me “I killed my child” the difference is... SHE DID KILL ME... I DID NOT KILL MY DAD OR CHILD like I was told!!!

🦠 For those who will ask: NO I didn’t talk to her today! But this is just another sample of how evil and cold hearted she is: especially when she says she “loves her grandchildren” but she don’t mind hurting them CLEARLY!!!



Update: 1-1-2020

I appreciate all your messages, calls & texts. Please know I hear you, I am just trying to breathe right now! I realize now that lying & covering up the lies, hurt, abuse & damage in hopes of one day being loved like I so desperately wanted has only destroyed me more & left me very raw & exposed. I don’t even know who I am anymore. I only know the broken girl wondering why her mothers love wasn’t free, like the world paints a mother to be, but Piece by piece at 42 years old.... I’m trying to just find my worth.. Thank you for not giving up on me.. even when I want to give up on myself.



But of course she stands by while he bullies me..& they call me crazy, evil & sick.
Why would she not: just wait:

Yes, this is the political piece of crap, Councilman Artie Jones, bullying me, & told me I killed my dad & child, Threatened my children & my mommy dearest told everyone she was leaving gracefully, as soon as he paid her for her time on his campaign trail. But no she sat with him in court.
More on that soon...

“Your sick, everyone knows your sick”



For reference; “You killed your dad and child”
mind you he even told my aunt he didn’t say this. 
Thankfully she knows the truth to all their lies now too. 



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