Post: 6/24/2020

To all my sisters who struggle with narcissistic abusive mothers.. this. So much this. This has been by far the hardest thing for me to understand.. seeing her stand by while I’ve been abused is the same as her abusing me. I can now close my eyes and hear her tell me “I killed my dad and son” because she stood in acceptance of it while he spewed it. And her telling me how evil I am then gaslighting me that she never said that to make me feel like I was the crazy one. Thankfully it’s all recorded and I know 100000% it was not me. It’s her. No matter how she spins it, I’ve been victim to her lies, manipulation & abuse. I don’t care what she says about me anymore. She will never change and I’m not waiting for her to any longer. She may not ever regret it this side of heaven but she will some day. It saddens me that she’s so sick she’s ok with what she’s done.. && allowed to be done..
Ultimately...  it’s her loss! She lost an amazing daughter, grandchildren & a son in law.
She will never be able to replace us... 

I won’t beg for anyone to be apart of mine and my children’s lives nor will my children or I be threatened with bodybags while she stands there & does nothing! ✌🏼