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Well she struck again..

 

She literally ripped the food off our table & the ability to pay our bills.. but she has to live with that! && honestly ..this doesn’t surprise me. I may live without, But, I’ll figure it out.. Just like I always have picking up the shattered pieces she’s left me to pick up just like my dad & sons death .. but I still have my family, unlike her which is worth way more than money.. It’s just another one of her plots and there have been many but unlike my daddy I still have a heartbeat & I’m not laying in a casket, in a cold dark grave or in the body bag she let us be threatened with!!! 

This is my final message to her.. I hope she someday snaps out of her evil ways and truly finds the (God) she claims to have on her side as she does all her evil.. I cringe at the very thought of her judgment... & sure hope she’s not already at a reprobate mind state because her evil doings sure lead me to believe that she is!!

 I could never imagine living in her shoes!! I would rather be DEAD than turn into not only the mother but the person she is.. 

—- “mommy dearest,  my incubator, egg donor, monster!”

Yea I wouldn't want to answer or talk either... knowing what you did was not only wrong & evil,  but also completely against my dead fathers wishes and just something else for you to take away that he left me & my children ... but it's ok... I actually knew you would take this low road at some point; because you never did what dad told you to do years ago and made excuses and lied the whole time so you could eventually do just what you did.. Thankfully I never believed you would do the right thing.. even tho YOU even swore you would do it, & you never would take what was mine.. it was just more of your lies like the many others.. & a matter of time until you tried to destroy me & my children more.. with more of your disgusting evil ways.. 


but you have to live with all your decisions just like what you did to Zell Jamie & nanny & papa and the many others!!! You've done so much evil & wrong sadly I am not surprised you took this route, you don't even have a conscience anymore.. it's been severed & I knew it was long before you did this... 

I just hope you're even more happy now.. You've made your choice.. & I hope you can sleep even better now.. with the blood on your hands... 

...at least I can sleep at night with my husband & children-minus the one who is dead because of you!!!!! 

&& I'm not laying beside a evil snake or sitting with him in court, (who you said you needed to get away from peacefully because of how he is) -- that same  evil snake that tormented YOUR children & grandchildren!! 

I hope your decision takes you far!!!!! You may have hurt us and caused us to have to do without food, my medicine, struggle to pay not only our bills but some of your bills also, but in the end it's no worse than the death you caused my dad & son, the rut you left Zell in, Jamie's money, the fraud you've done, the money you hid from nanny and papas account, the floors you walk on that should be at nanny & papas house ... && all the other evil you've done, or the repercussions & judgment you will face... At the end of the day you've always wanted more, and money has driven you.. always looking for more even changing price tags on items, stealing & cashing a fraudulent check at the bank to get "more money!" I hope it all takes you far.... you may have caused me a roadblock & some hardship, but you've yet to destroy & kill me like you did daddy!!!! & I am not in the body bags you let that evil piece of shit you hang with threatened me with!! 

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— I hope she finds the peace she wants & can live completely comfortable in it.. because her lies & evil has definitely costed her... a cost I couldn’t even ever imagine...

..Her husband, her only child & her grandchildren. 

&& money can’t buy them things...





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