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Y’all. I am finally making all the long awaited videos PUBLIC. As my heart & health has suffered I will be sharing more evil twisted trauma and abuse I’ve endured & reminding each and everyone of you: at my death DO NOT BELIEVE HER TEARS or sadness of losing her only child & her only daughter. She has truly shown over the years exactly who she is & it’s quite disgusting to me.. I couldn’t ever imagine putting my children through the hell, lies, abuse, manipulation & stress she has caused me and my family.. & even the death of my dad.. & son… but still claims to be so holy & has God on her side.. I am so thankful so many others are finally seeing behind her painted white fence.. sometimes I wondered how the devil fooled so many.. then I listen to her and I don’t wonder anymore.. && she still has the audacity to tell me she loves me!! I throw up in my mouth when I hear them words from her.. sadly.. she uses them often and has to get her way and cover her lies.. I can’t wait for that God she claims to be on her side to be standing face to face with her.. what a day that’s going to be.. and I don’t want to be near when that day comes!! 


Anyway here is the highlight of my YouTube channel and it will be updated a lot in the coming weeks: just remember should something happen to me before I finish.. you know where to look first.. even in a good ole boy political town…

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Just a girl trying to heal from the abuse she’s endured at the hands of her very own mother & her mothers friends.. 

While I’m now suffering from c-PTSD, depression, anxiety & a very badly broken heart since the death of my son and father.. less than 2 months apart.. being in intense therapy and now medicated from the trauma and abuse has allowed me to finally speak up in hopes that some younger version of me (or even my age or older) can recognize the signs and get away from the abuse before it’s to late.. hopefully saving their (dad) or mom.. before death, without being told to sit down & shut up, honor your mother, no one will believe you, along with the countless other lies and scare tactics used toward me.. even being threatened with body bags & being told I killed my dad and child.. & how sick and evil I am to break me… so much more to come and also a book is in the making! Exposing the abuse and evil because I choose to now “live in color”… 


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