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Danger Monster Calling


Funny how she can tell me not to call her anymore.. & to have a nice life.. 


& now she calls me? This is EMOTIONAL & MENTAL abuse at its finest. I can’t even imagine what my dad went through. Now I know why he called her a f+*¥ing B!&#% & wrote the letter he did before he died. I will be sharing that recording of his very own voice soon. But this is real life for me.I guess I’m at her “disposal” like I’ve always been, I’m suppose to be reachable by her at all times & her have access to me but it’s not the other way around.. that’s why she wasn’t there when my son died nor any of my sickness & surgery but I have been there for all of hers until I really learned who she was.. 

&&& She wants to say she’s a victim… pshh. She’s a liar.

Who really calls someone knowing they have blocked them?  knowing they can’t return a call even if they wanted to?! None other than a mental & emotional narcissist abuser. AKA- the monster who birthed me.. she called me with intent of hurting me more and to remind me she’s unavailable to me yet she still has access to call me whenever she wants.. but I can not call her.. ever.. so I’ve I lay dying don’t dial her because she doesn’t care… remind her of this when I’m gone!!! 

Like I said.. All children deserve a mother; but not all mothers deserve children and mine sure didn’t deserve me. ✌️ 

FB post: 

Disgusting: I’ve sat on this a few days: talked to my therapist who reminded me this was just her way of trying to “control” me.. that’s just what narcissists do. #narcissistMonster

Remember the other day when I posted my “monster” blocked me? Like I can’t even call or text her if I needed her, which I won’t, but still.. If I was laying dying and wanted to call her I could not. YET.. she is going to call my number, for what? Just to mentally & emotionally abuse me, by reminding me she can still have access to me yet she’s BLOCKED ME and I can not call her back? 

+Remember she told me NEVER to contact her again.. yet she can still call my number in attempt to hurt me?? This is how she works. It’s beyond disgusting & as I get more recordings downloaded it’s just another reminder of how sick she is… with all her lies.. and the abuse I’ve missed.. my gosh. 

My poor dad no wonder he is dead… I have so many questions about him being “found in bed dead” — of a “drug overdose”, and the upcoming recording will have others scratching their head too. I want a new set of eyes & a investigation on it, honestly, I BEGGGGGGGGGED to get him help.. and some of the things he said makes me wonder.. but, I know now why he told me the last time he saw me the Sunday before he died Monday; that he just wanted to die, some days I wish I was too, to be free of her and the demons.. 

+ I don’t fear monsters anymore.. One birthed me….

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