I’m done with Facebook for today. 😭
I just posted this on my reels, for those that don’t see it, Im so broken..
It hit me like a ton of bricks.. I ache to know what this love is, this is one of those “as the world paints” mothers that not all children get.. & are left as empty shells wondering why they were never enough… & unfortunately I am one of those children who feels that emptiness & often wonders why I don’t deserve this kind of love.. 💔
I am the mom I am today because I don’t want my children to ever feel this emptiness, or ever question their self worth, but I often have to remind myself to keep breathing; & some days are just really dark..
& sadly my nightmares are much welcomed over being awake facing real life monsters & the reality that I live, everyday, including my family being threatened with body bags, I was told I killed my child & my dad, while my mother drove off and left me & then she sat with this scum in court as he attacked me mentally in the court room… but I’m sure she will be the biggest supporter of his campaign again… & lie about it the whole time just like last time…..
—while her daughter is dying…
-this stuff doesn’t just go away..
PTSD, triggers & reminders are a constant wave, leaving me fighting & gasping for my next breath… just like I did all alone, in her front yard…. As she drove away with him & left me…
……remember that as you vote..