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Follow me on Facebook! : Click here :  I’ve posted some new blogs!   + AmandainColor.com & created a new YouTube channel! + https://youtube.com/channel/UCcY-vMMDFS_f3YBUzlZDWFw +++ a BOOK IS IN THE WORKS!!!  “Never sit down and shut up!” She wants to call me “DeManda” because I’m so “demanding”, well.. (recording coming soon!) yes “monster” I am.. I am demanding freedom, from the mental & emotional abuse, the trauma, the absence of a mother who loved, the premature death of my dad and son due to YOUR denial &  negligence, the abuse you’ve allowed me to suffer while turning your head, the image of you sitting in the court room with my abuser, the theft & price changes, the lies.. +++ so much more to be revealed.. I am DEMANDA, demanding to be free of the razor wire you’ve wrapped around my neck! You are a sick individual.  Most children only fear make believe monsters, unfortunately mine was not just make believe, you are a real life monster! + you had the audacity to c

Karma 🤨🙃🤔 maybe??

( how fitting especially for the address part LOL!! ) XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX  So I got these from a source a while ago & yes, I blocked the address because I’m sure he will try to say “something” out his ass about me as usual..but at least it won’t be me posting his “gated community address”… but it’s public records….   .. anyway.. I couldn’t help but think…. I wonder if he will get off of this!?? Or what tactics he will use.. (I could say so much but I’m holding off.. trust me it’s coming tho! Oh the lies.. To be revealed… just waited for it all to come together.. ……But….. The state of Georgia versus him?? I can’t help but wonder how strong the political pull or “good old boy” system will be for him in this one?  …seems there has been a recent 6/2021 update which he entered a plea of not guilty. (Now for the record, being said here I don’t know if guilty or not guilty is accurate for this case; but seems a pattern that he is always “not guilty or responsible for any wrong doing in what

Checkmate.. ♟

  I needed this today & someone else out there does too! ✨ with all my intense therapy; I finally feel like I am taking some forward steps.. 👣  I couldn’t for the life of me for all these years figure out how a mother could not love the child they carried and birthed, especially knowing how much I love mine.. 💙💙💙 I often wondered why I was so hard to love that even my own mother doesn’t love or want me and it’s broke me down many times.. especially when she lies to others who come at me with how much she loves me; & mainly because of the world painted a mom as someone who loves you more than themselves & who will always be there, they are supposed to be your best friend, protect you and someone you can always count & rely on; but not every child has that mother; and I’ve slowly learned it’s not that she doesn’t want or love me, it’s that she can not program me to her needs any longer and manipulate me with her lies: I see through her now and all her lies and her bul

Dear Estranged Mother:

   Dear Estranged Mother: Grandmother: //Father/Parents/Grandparents// We need to talk — just not with you. Your estrangement from your adult kid is definitely your fault, and things can’t possibly improve until you take full responsibility and face some hard truths. Hard Truth: Children have no control over how they’re raised. There are echo chambers all over the internet ready to tell unique stories about addicted or mentally unhealthy kids, but that’s not really what’s going on with your kid, is it? There’s also the classic set of excuses that “it wasn’t really that bad” or “we were just strict,” shifting blame to the child for their own upbringing. That’s insane. It can be easy to convince a little kid (and yourself) that it’s their fault the relationship is a mess. What’s changed is their ability as adults to realize parents control the upbringing. Hard Truth: Your adult children have emotionally supportive relationships with others. You’re the odd one out. Your adult children are

He’s a damn liar & her too!

 Just more proof he had other motives for pulling up on my child & husband today! Here is a police report that from when I called in on him where the officer even asked him to step out because of “safety reasons” with his lights off in a dark location with a gun on his seat!! He claims he doesn’t go to her house without her there; YET he pulled his nasty ass right on in there today without here there while my child was there.. why?? So he could catch him out back kill him and then say oh he felt intimidated or threatened, like he told them before (I’ll post that report here too) ?? Oh and he told them he was there waiting on her from seagals when she clearly said Fulfords? They can’t even keep their lies together.. but just MORE proof that he was up to no good.. or else he would not have pulled in KNOWING THAT WAS MY CHILD THERE!!! You all can believe his lies and hers too if you want.. but I’m calling it as it is.. and here is the report to prove he’s a damn liar, just looking for

I’m the sick one??

“I refuse to stay silent anymore!!!!”  I am just sick to death with her and her and the snakes she slithers with! I just can’t believe God would give a child to someone so evil!! Then I sit and think of the mother’s that have killed their children and some days I wish she would have been one of them mothers just so I don’t have to live with her abuse!! I begged DFAS to take me when I was younger and she lied her way out of it to be able to keep me only to continue her evil ways and have her personal alibi so she could still, cheat and fraud any system she could, I covered so much because she programmed me and I knew she had a one up on the system after I called DFAS on her!! I wish so much she wasn’t so good at her lying/cheating/stealing game but she is and it’s cost the death of my dad, my son and she is working on the death of me.. my heart can’t take much more.. I seriously have prayed to just die and go to wherever I’m meant to be because it has to be better than the hell her and

I can’t. Yes I can. It’s who she is.

  Just when I think my “incubator” & St Mary’s councilman Artie Jones has no more up there sleeve!! Debbie Shedd “my egg donor incubator” HIRED my child to cut her grass; she KNEW he was coming, was even at the bank getting him money… low and behold Artie Jones PULLS IN BESIDE MY CHILD WHILE SHE IS NOT THERE and had just pulled in; WAS HE STALKING them?! I mean we have police reports!! Was this a set up?? I mean he’s threatened my children & family with BODY BAGS & GUNS?! Was his plan to use a GUN ON MY CHILD AND HUSBAND TO SAY HE FELT INTIMIDATED AFTER HE PULLED UP ON THEM??? & they would not longer be able to tell their side???? I immediately called the police & my husband and son are safe BUT WHO DOES THIS?!!!!!? She has lost her effing mind!!! I can’t right now I am so pissed!!!! What a disgusting set up to have my child & husband KILLED!!!!!  (Transcript from court of him abusing me and provoking me for the court to allow my “egg donor” to sit with him! He

YouTube!

  AmandaInColor YouTube ( https://youtube.com/channel/UCcY-vMMDFS_f3YBUzlZDWFw ) Y’all. I am finally making all the long awaited videos PUBLIC. As my heart & health has suffered I will be sharing more evil twisted trauma and abuse I’ve endured & reminding each and everyone of you: at my death DO NOT BELIEVE HER TEARS or sadness of losing her only child & her only daughter. She has truly shown over the years exactly who she is & it’s quite disgusting to me.. I couldn’t ever imagine putting my children through the hell, lies, abuse, manipulation & stress she has caused me and my family.. & even the death of my dad.. & son… but still claims to be so holy & has God on her side.. I am so thankful so many others are finally seeing behind her painted white fence.. sometimes I wondered how the devil fooled so many.. then I listen to her and I don’t wonder anymore.. && she still has the audacity to tell me she loves me!! I throw up in my mouth when I hear

Dear Estranged Parents

Dear Estranged Parents. (Mommy Dearest!) We need to talk — just not with you. Your estrangement from your adult kid is definitely your fault, and things can’t possibly improve until you take full responsibility and face some hard truths. Hard Truth: Children have no control over how they’re raised. There are echo chambers all over the internet ready to tell unique stories about addicted or mentally unhealthy kids, but that’s not really what’s going on with your kid, is it? There’s also the classic set of excuses that “it wasn’t really that bad” or “we were just strict,” shifting blame to the child for their own upbringing. That’s insane. It can be easy to convince a little kid (and yourself) that it’s their fault the relationship is a mess. What’s changed is their ability as adults to realize parents control the upbringing. Hard Truth: Your adult children have emotionally supportive relationships with others. You’re the odd one out. Your adult children are definitely interacting and ha

6 years of hell… Dad.

  Facebook post 6/2/2021 6 years of hell… No one hears the silent (-br-en-) when I tell them I’m OK.  #brOKen .. I hope my (egg donor) Debbie Shedd and her (whatever he is) evil POC (Councilman Artie Jones) are happy with their evilness.. They have destroyed me.. his evil words  (“you killed your dad and your child”) are to much for my head.. & No matter what I do nor any amount of  therapy I’ve had doesn’t make them fade..  I just can’t do it anymore.. & he thinks he can just walk up in my dads house like he is welcome or belongs there!!! Stomping all over my dad!! Soooo disgusting!! It shows what type of people they both are.. My dad has rolled over in his grave!!!!!  The noose is so tight I can hardly breath.. I seriously fight to breathe..  Yesterday I tried to keep my mind busy.. it’s been 6 years.. that my dad was found dead in bed alone.. so full of drugs he was labels a “soup kitchen of medicine” my life hasn’t been the same since… I have literally laid in the bed stru

Well she struck again..

  She literally ripped the food off our table & the ability to pay our bills.. but she has to live with that! && honestly ..this doesn’t surprise me. I may live without, But, I’ll figure it out.. Just like I always have picking up the shattered pieces she’s left me to pick up just like my dad & sons death .. but I still have my family, unlike her which is worth way more than money.. It’s just another one of her plots and there have been many but unlike my daddy I still have a heartbeat & I’m not laying in a casket, in a cold dark grave or in the body bag she let us be threatened with!!!  This is my final message to her.. I hope she someday snaps out of her evil ways and truly finds the (God) she claims to have on her side as she does all her evil.. I cringe at the very thought of her judgment... & sure hope she’s not already at a reprobate mind state because her evil doings sure lead me to believe that she is!!  I could never imagine living in her shoes!! I woul

TOXIC!

  Fb  post: 2/16/2021 This right here is why I’ve walked away from so many “friends” & even some family. What she has done & allowed to be done, to me & my children is absolutely disgusting.. and anyone who doesn’t stand up to her is toxic to me and my family! She thinks she can do no wrong & its poor her “boo hoo” she’s lost her family... wrong!!! She abused and watched her family be abused, sat with our abuser in court, lied to HIM & to US.... & so much more, not to mention she watched her husband DIE a slow death AND DID ABSOLUTELY NOTHING to save him!!! I will not be silent nor do I need anyone to stand beside me that will not stand up to her and tell her she’s wrong!! Don’t PITY HER!!! It’s exactly what she wants!!!! She can spin her lies and the bull crap as many ways as she wants... go visit the cemetery and see my dad and sons grave..  I promise you there is a lot YOU don’t know!!! Continue to support her and believe her crap and you will continue to won

Christmas

  “Some of the letter my dad wrote before his death.. sadly he died not being good enough.. but she blames me & allows me to be told I killed him and my child- “ Artie Jones Jr. ”  ——- Well it’s that time of year again where I should have 3 children not just two: and my dad should be here to enjoy it with his family also but nope he’s dead from the soup kitchen of drugs inside him that my “incubator” said she was monitoring.. yes she monitored them alright.. right to the grave.. where my son also lays beside him 2 short months later.. but it’s not any care of hers she’s moved on with her life, so now hopefully she will get a Christmas gift she wants because clearly my dad never could do anything right or get her the Christmas gift she wanted.. as he wrote in his letter before he went to the grave!!! It is so disgusting to me how sick she is and just knowing she can look at herself in the mirror or even sleep at night; even with medicine my heart wouldn’t let me rest ::: but I guess

Flying monkey!

I’m learning to forgive myself for loving my incubator. Unfortunately she had a lifetime to program me, manipulate me & robot me to see past all her evil.  A little girl should have a mom as their best friend:  I got a monster & 2 graves instead..  (Oh but I killed the 2 in them graves, my dad and my son, according to her evil (insert your own words for him here). He’s not human to speak to a mother who buried her child the way he did me.   FB post: This. I have been pulling away and building walls to get away from them.. I can not even believe the abuse some know about and turn a blind eye too.. there is a special place in hell for all of them.. I’ll continue to protect myself & my family from “her and her monkeys”.. I just hate that it took me this long to get out of her spell and manipulation and the death of my dad and son.. && she still has the audacity to tell me she loves me the very minimal contact I’ve had with her 🤮 yea she loves me alright... she loved m

FAKE!

 Y’all. I’ve been working on a few posts, just haven’t finished them yet, but this. Oh.my.gohhhh. FAKE! Look. Who does she think she’s fooling with family? & honestly most friends too..  lol...... I got this with a text (that I won’t share) and I couldn’t do anything but laugh. Like the text says.. WHAT FAMILY???  Her nephew/Brother & his family doesn’t have anything to do with her, Her only child and her family has nothing to do with her, her husband overdosed and after listening to some of his messages and reading letters he left I assume his overdose (or was it???) (more on that coming soon!) but if it was truly an overdose like was said, I believe it was to get away from her as well which he said he wanted to many times & I have proof... & she’s made me want to kill myself to get away from her too.. Her parents are dead, her sister knows her evil ways and loves her but I am not even going there right now, her friends, that is a joke. Yes she has some but wait until

“I make all this up”

*** This is not super recent! This was one of my last straws with her tho and as I prepare my stuff I wanted to share this!! So I have NOT had recent contact with her for the record!  Famous words of a Narcissist. I didn’t say that. That didn’t happen. You make all this up. It’s all your fault. You deserve it..... I am so SICK of these words!!! You hear her tell me I am full of the devil and all because of my evilness: but then a few days later I make all this up, I am tormenting my family,  and it’s me and my little shenanigans to make me the crazy one like always. All in the name of her “god”. Take what you want from it. This is why she sits back and allows my family to be threatened with body bags and does nothing and allows him to tell me I killed my dad and son and does nothing.. this is why my dad and son are dead because I always made it up & it was always my crazy shenanigans & of course she never did or said anything! She didn’t know I had my phone on b