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Abuse. (More to come)

I didn’t ask to be brought into this world.. I sure didn’t deserve the abuse Ive been dealt.. You have no idea what I am overcoming, I’ve had a zipper, tape and hands over my mouth for longer than I care to explain, the scars & infection are deep, and all the lies that has come with it, but I love you was the biggest, I’m not sure what my purpose here is, but I fight everyday for my children because I know first hand what it’s like not to be fought for. The mental, emotional, physical abuse I’ve suffered has made me not want to live...death seems easier than the demons I’ve been left to face, yet I face them everyday. It makes me sick to think of all the abuse I’ve covered because I just wanted to be love and accepted, and it all came with conditions of “sit down and shut up” or else, and sadly that’s still been the condition, but I kept waiting for the approval that I was enough and I had lied enough to be loved, and even at 40 I was still waiting... I’ve covered way more than I …

Death of a Broken Heart.

Death of a broken heart is real. Ugh. 💔  I don’t wish this loss on anyone!! Not even the scum who told me I killed my son and added razor blades to my already destroyed heart & so much more hurt to the deep pain & brokenness I already feel... #RevengeisHis 
...I am seriously shocked some days my broken heart hasn’t stopped and most days I wonder if “this is the day” it will be finally give out and I’ll be with my baby boy again, my heart is so tired & honestly I am too... I have suffered the greatest loss there is & so much more has been added to it. #GodImissYouBlakey #SidneyBlake #Hughimonceforme #Mamamissesyou #brokenHeart #Almost4Years 
Unless you’ve been here, you wouldn’t understand. It’s a pain you can’t describe and it doesn’t get easier, you can’t just “get over it” & Time really doesn’t help especially when it comes to child loss. This accurately describes the heart with child loss. #Broken #childloss #deathofaBrokenHeart #SidneyBlake #aSeaofTears
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