Amanda’s Story

So TRUE!!! I’ve learned my only real family is my boys who live here with me.. a few extended family members & the friends who have became family.  The past 2 years especially, I’ve learned so much about “family” especially the one who “birthed” me.. I’ve prayed for her to change but she won’t, not living in the lies anyway & honestly I’m not sugar coating it anymore, I don’t care who doesn’t like my truth! I am not here to wear a mask anymore, I’ve did that for way to long and had I took the mask off and went with my gut my dad and son could still be here!! Honestly, my birthday was very hard this year, but I won’t even go there today... after court I will say more.. at this point, I know someday she will regret it.. she knows the truth. Over the past week especially she knows. But she knew the same truth when my dad was overdosing.. and well we all know where that ended... THE GRAVE!!!!!!!!!  but I’m getting stronger and stronger EVERYDAY. My  therapi

Soon I’ll face my Goliath and I’m ready. I have heard the lies. I have PROOF against them. Bring it. I have my sling & one stone. You see I’m more afraid of what he will do to me and my family outside of court than I am what he will do to me inside of court. Evil is what it is.. and my mother has sat on the fence for so long she will get to choose a side without telling the police something while he’s standing there, then telling me something else. I don’t care if she goes against me, she already has and you know what, that truth will come too! I am tired of living the lies and I don’t have to anymore! The truth is darkness always comes to light and just because the ”some” of the other stuff hasn’t yet, doesn’t mean that it won’t! You see.. I don’t have to hide anymore in fear of not having a mother love me.. that doesn’t matter to me anymore.. I’ve heard the lies, I’ve seen behind the mask and well honestly it’s her loss. One day she can sit and think about all she’s d

“CHECKMATE” My hope to ever be loved like I deserve is gone. I will not beg you another day to love me. I will not wait another second for you to be who you should be. You have proved time and time again you’re not capable and as long as that low life scum is around, you will never love me or my children the way we deserve, especially with court looming from his “embarrassment” of the situation where he has made threats, bullied & lied and used his evil to destroy my family.. & I could go a step further but I won’t. You already know. You’ve played a hand in them lies, just like you did leading up to my dads death.. you’re good at your game.. and your “lies of love” well... my hope of them ever being real has faded, just like the promises you’ve made, the verbal agreements & the knowing of how things should be done at deaths of those who entrusted you... I’ll leave that right there. 🐍🐍🐍🐍🐍🐍🐍🐍 The world paints a vivid picture of how things should be, whi