Amanda’s Story

Just sitting here reflecting over the weekend and pretty disgusted yet it doesn’t surprise me one bit. This weekend my son turned 20, thank you to all who thought of him! It meant so much to know he is loved and thought of.. sadly his own blood grandmother didn’t even acknowledge his birthday! You know I am not surprised as many of you probably are not either, but it’s disgusting. You know every year the last few, I was in contact with her on her birthday she was in competition with a lady who shared her birthday for birthday comments, wanting to be in a pissing match to make sure she got more than this other person, I’ll just call her Mrs.L. I actually ran into this person not long ago downtown St.Marys and chatted with her and I can say I’m not surprised that every year she ended up with more comments & wishes, I contribute that to the outstanding person she is. She is not fake & definitely has integrity on her side. Anyway, as Tyler’s birthday passed, He did not receiv

To all my sisters who struggle with narcissistic abusive mothers.. this. So much this. This has been by far the hardest thing for me to understand.. seeing her stand by while I’ve been abused is the same as her abusing me. I can now close my eyes and hear her tell me “I killed my dad and son” because she stood in acceptance of it while he spewed it. And her telling me how evil I am then gaslighting me that she never said that to make me feel like I was the crazy one. Thankfully it’s all recorded and I know 100000% it was not me. It’s her. No matter how she spins it, I’ve been victim to her lies, manipulation & abuse. I don’t care what she says about me anymore. She will never change and I’m not waiting for her to any longer. She may not ever regret it this side of heaven but she will some day. It saddens me that she’s so sick she’s ok with what she’s done.. && allowed to be done.. Ultimately...  it’s her loss! She lost an amazing daughter, grandchildren & a son i

WOW. So true... unfortunately this person for me is my very own mother.. but thankfully everyday I get stronger without her! She lost the best & her only child & the best & her only grandchildren... the most precious that life could offer.. & it’s ultimately her loss.. I’ve also come to accept she’s responsible for her friend who hurt me & my family deeply too.. especially when she stood by & then sat with him in court against me.. never once caring about the damage done to me... but it has changed me forever and everyday I grow stronger, with those that love & value me & know my worth. 💙 one day she will realize what’s she’s lost.. only then it will be to late.. ✌🏼

June 21,2020. So much to say. I guess the easiest would be this. Happy Birthday Dad. Happy Father’s Day Dad. Happy Father’s Day to my amazing husband Jack. That would be easy words.. only if: This day didn’t include a visit to the cemetery. My dads life was not cut short by the denial & drugs. He was robbed of so much. But justice for him will come. The amount of disrespect is disgusting, & only to think the fingers were pointed at me... so thankful the truth is being exposed.. My husbands 3rd son was still living to celebrate with him. Ugh. I will just leave all that right there.. you know why? Because the truth will expose all the lies soon.... FB post: Today just isn’t a easy day on my heart.. it’s sooo full yet sooo broken... I am so thankful for this man who gave me the biggest blessing that life can give, 3 of the most amazing, caring, fun, handsome, God fearing boys! #Boymom Yet, one is now the most beautiful angel & missed & loved more t

I have a few I’m working on: not only am I working on them, I am working on my book also,  I can’t wait to share more!! Big things happening around here! It’s been quite around here but not on the legal side! Most of you know, I have been having down time on vacation & I had a really nice vacation with the family God gave me! My boys really enjoyed this vacation and it was so nice not to look over our shoulders wondering if we would end up in the body bags we’ve been threatened with! No one knew where we were and we were able to relax! I needed that time with my family before moving forward. I have a couple big meetings coming up this week! I can’t wait to share them either! They will blow some minds but most of all bring awareness! I have said it before and I will say it again; I will NOT be silenced! I was asked again.. what needs to happen?! What needs to happen is justice needs to happen! My children didn’t deserve to be threatened with his weapon in my dads house,