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We are going LIVE!

  FB POST: 12:29:2021 Just eating some popcorn 🍿 waiting on the fireworks πŸŽ†πŸŽ‡✨ #wearegoingONAIR #ComingSOON #corruptpolitics #sharingmystoryLIVE #Amandaincolor #Amandaincolordotcom #NewYearFireworks #Bang   I did NOT kill my child or my dad.. My family didn’t deserve body bag threats. MY FAMILY DOES NOT deserve to live in fear. I did NOT deserve to be emotionally & mentally abused in court because of my mental health, which I have on transcript.. with a request from my dr. & SOOO MUCH MORE…. I may go out in a body bag but I won’t go out silent! ✌️ πŸŽ‡πŸŽ†πŸŽ‡πŸŽ†πŸŽ‡πŸŽ†πŸŽ‡πŸŽ†πŸŽ‡πŸŽ†πŸŽ‡πŸŽ†πŸŽ‡πŸŽ‡ —- I want to say so much more but right now I just cant.. however, I’m so excited about this! Oh &&& while we are here.. isn’t this a election year coming 2022?! How ironic is that! Wonder who will be running??! Humm πŸ€” +++++ This definitely won’t get a pretrial diversion agreement πŸ˜‰ and I’m sure no amount of money can cover it up either!!! πŸ’₯ 

Celebrate 2 years.

  2 years ago I was sitting in a hotel somewhere in Alabama with no idea how I really got there, with a bottle of pills in front of me & writing what would be my last letter to my husband & my children.   + the days are a blur but also very vivid.. life changing for me.. I had lost my dad & my child just a few years prior & my world was still upside down. I still was grieving hard & I was also really learning who my mother was and honestly couldn’t accept it at all.. all the past was adding up and I couldn’t live in denial anymore.. she was who she is and I had to accept it.. as it hit me like a brick wall.. much like my dads overdose.. as much as I didn’t want to because I just really wanted her to love me, accept me & be the mother the world paints, but she wasn’t capable of loving me or being that mother.. and the harsh reality really knocked me down..  This day, I went to her house to show her the places that had been cut off my face & sent off to determ

Busy. FB. 12/11/21

  I wish I could tell you how many times I’ve “lied”.  You see, I am learning a new life, after 35+ years of a life I lived..  being busy is a comfort place for me now.  You see in 2015 my world was flipped.. I was left to forever grieve the death of my son & also my dad, but, I am also grieving the death of my “mother”…. It was all stripped away without any warning..  & While she may be on earth in her physical form & less than 10 miles from us, she has not been the mother the world paints nor has she been here for my children & I.  So being “busy” keeps us from having to look over our shoulder & from running into her in town.. to have the reminder of death, the pain & abuse we’ve endured. #mentalhealth  Yet, This morning I woke up to another message in my inbox of screenshots, of her showering love to another “daughter & grandchildren” a love that my children & I don’t know.. and while I cringed for a moment I was once again reminded, it’s for show.  A

Overdue. RIP daddy.

(It’s late & this was a very hard post for me! I will be editing this with some voice recordings, court documents, police reports & more in the very near future so please check back for more details soon!!) to my daddy… thanks for loving me hard when you were in sound mind..without the drugs & I’m sorry I didn’t see through the lies that left so many unanswered questions… at your death. I’m one day closer to seeing you!”) ……….  So after today’s appointment I feel like I need to write this post. As many or probably all of you know at this point my dad is dead. Above you will see the final picture of him on earth. Without life. Laying in his casket. Prematurely. What comes next is a mystery that unfortunately I’m not sure will ever get solved although I still have hope that someday before I take my last breath here I will have the answers I’ve been seeking.. Unfortunately I don’t know for certain if his overdose or as I was told “his body was a drug soup kitchen” was intentio

FB 12/9/2021

  FB post: So true.  Every. Single. Day.  I’m standing. I’m fighting. I’m trying. —————— Also; Please DO NOT send me any more information on her & especially NOT any on him. I really do not care. He is a disgusting snake who is dead to me; especially after all he’s done already… & While I do think it’s stupid that he shared her personal profile picture, because, seriously who shares someone else’s profile picture? especially when it doesn’t even have anything to do with or include them?? We all know what his intentions were, but, it’s just laughable to me! He can’t take any worse stabs at my heart than the one of him telling me I killed my child & dad.. So let them play their games. Karma has the address… she will knock soon enough..✌️ ——— “ You killed your dad, you killed your child .”

Laughable… 🀣

Who even does this?? Shares someone’s profile picture that they are NOT in & it doesn’t have anything to do with them? Is this for attention? or a trophy move? or just to be a disgusting human to take stabs at her family who he’s already destroyed? ORRR maybe all of the above? After all he threatened her family with body bags so maybe he is making some type of point with flaunting her??? Bless his heart. (This one on dads birthday!) Y’all.  I can not even with this. Listen I don’t have to write a full post about this… it speaks volumes and says so much of the type of person he is.. & well she allows this.. even tho she says she doesn’t…but.. this is laughable to me; who shares someone’s profile picture? Not only that but remember she was also made as his profile picture on my dads birthday… “the dad I killed remember?”  Yet she is so blind to his agendas & motives.. While I know this is just one of his many stabs at me, This is just laughable because if he only heard her ta